If you’ve never asked yourself if everything was fucking hopeless than you’re probably already dead and not reading this. The thing about life is that it gets pretty fucking bleak and when the lights go out everything seems darker than it is. And it’s easy to get lost in the dark, it’s easy to be afraid of the dark, it’s easy to know your own darkness so well that you fall in love with it as it is a part of you. Humanity is a fragile thing as it is volatile; feelings and cognition are potent factors in what make us who we are. And it is in our nature to survive, to endure, to go on, but with cognition and humanity comes a price, there doesn’t seem to be any other species on this Earth that wages war, which self-loathes, or self-destructs the way we as humanity do, every day.
There are places on this planet that know nothing of the “civilized” world. There are places where fighting for your life literally means fighting for your life. There are places like this even amid the “civilized” world. The so called third world has always existed even in our backyards. In Africa there are warlords and people shedding blood for diamonds or blood for blood. In the Middle East there is a religious civil war being waged or war being waged over something as crude as oil. In South America there is war being waged for drugs or for trade. If you look hard enough, if you look long enough, if you gaze out into the abyss that is human nature’s effect on this world you can find war anywhere, even in the mirror.
When we lose perspective it’s pretty easy to get lost, and we’re lost, we’re adrift, our way of life is reaching a point of not being able to sustain itself and the ends are no longer justifying the means. We’re raping and pillaging the Earth at such a rate that the proverbial “end” is nearing. Somewhere along the line our evolution came full circle and we started devolving or perhaps this was always going to come to pass. We’re chewing up rain forests and blasting deep holes into the Earth and spewing sludge into the waters and coughing carbon dioxide into the atmosphere and melting the polar ice caps and the environment is reflecting this with storms that are washing away lives, or heat that makes it hard to breathe, and we are having such an effect on this world that we are changing the laws of nature and causing irreparable damage to that which is meant to sustain us, we never inherited the Earth so much as we were supposed to be a part of it. And for what, for nothing more than ideologies or lack of ideals completely. To what end do we seek but our own end? We are committing suicide on a global scale and as each day passes we are taking more and more rope and tightening and tightening that figurative noose. Some say the end is near, I say the end was always here, the end was always in the mirror.
We as a society have always had the capacity for change. But the question is do we have the will to do it. And even if one nation marches for change, there are still countless other nations that will press on towards reaching for something that was never real. And here we are at a stalemate, with everyone out for themselves and motivated by greed, and that’s what it is, we as a species are destined to decay, destined to destroy, destined for destruction. When you stop and you ask yourself if the world as a whole can come together and end our own ending it’s easy to see only darkness, it’s easy to only see hope lying bleeding over the soil of the eroded Earth, it’s easy to look into the mirror and not see anything at all.
Ignorance is easy, change is not. That’s the simple truth. And the belief in change and hope is what drives us to endure. So maybe, just maybe, we can try to be better people and not this thing we’ve become. Maybe we can take some responsibility for our actions. Or maybe we as a whole can try not to be such perfect assholes shitting on the Earth. But, that’s just my opinion and it really doesn’t matter because we’re fucked anyway, so as this ship continues to be adrift and sinking fast I will do little more than join in and pollute this world with nothing more than my own bullshit as none of it matters and everybody dies anyway and we always have masturbation so the real change that matters will ever be at hand. Maybe all that religious mumbo jumbo had it wrong and we were never going to hell so much as we were supposed to create it and I’d say we’re doing a pretty solid job. All is lost and it’s going to be one big party when things get dark and gritty and we see just how human humanity really is when the chips are down and the big machine of progress grinds to a whimper. And remember, I’ll see you in hell, I’ll be the one running for my life with everyone else, only, I’ll be the one with my dick in my hand while I do so because I believe in change.
Fuck like hell.